When I posted on Tuesday, I felt so alone. But as I went through the rest of my day, my phone buzzed at me constantly, showing me each new comment as it appeared, and I was overwhelmed.
I kept waiting for the judgment, the virtual scorn. And I found only love and support.
Lisa b wrote,
"I think you judge yourself more harshly than anyone else would and the other commenters here support my theory."
And that's true -- not only do I judge myself, but I consistently see judgement where there is none. We take D. to shul every week, and Mr. WG and I are always worried that his wandering will disturb others. But no one else even notices. Those who do just high-five him or shake his hand as he passes by. And I know this, logically, in my brain, and still I think, "Is he bothering them? He's bothering them, isn't he?"
Thank you, all of you. You have made me feel much less alone. And much more loved.
Ultrasound later today for dates. I'll try to update before Shabbat, but realistically, I don't know if I'll have a chance.