tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21565739.post2439585356719072498..comments2023-11-24T03:11:03.331-06:00Comments on You Get What You Get: Fragile and BrokenWriterGrrlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18311438803372879731noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21565739.post-31367972869301909552013-12-15T13:41:31.750-06:002013-12-15T13:41:31.750-06:00Both my husband and I were crying for Sam last nig...Both my husband and I were crying for Sam last night. And for us. Their story could easily be ours. Might be some day, as much as it pains me to think that way. There is no predicting which way our story will go. And Sam's death came at a particularly sensitive time for us - when Jack's chemo has been stopped for the third time and then restarted but with the dose cut to almost nothing...making relapse more of a danger. And there are no answers or explanations or specific predictions as to what will happen in OUR case. Just "most kids beat this" and "some don't." It's horrific.<br /><br />Last year when the Sandy Hook massacre happened and someone I knew lost a family member, I kept thinking "I can't care." I wanted to but it's like cancer sucked up all of my caring. I've been fixated. I guess this is why they say so many parents of kids with cancer get PTSD - you replay it all in your mind over and over. Everything else seems so far removed.<br /><br />When Jack was first diagnosed, my husband said his worst fear was that I would fade if Jack did. He would lose both of us. I think about that all the time.Crystal T.https://www.blogger.com/profile/11975436998152162353noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21565739.post-83192928623019910572013-12-15T09:57:17.995-06:002013-12-15T09:57:17.995-06:00Frankie had that precise reaction and I wondered i...Frankie had that precise reaction and I wondered if Guy was reacting similarly. They're just wired differently, I guess. <br /><br />The grief must be crushing. Because removed and remote, I feel it hard to breathe today.<br /><br />Thinking of you and Adi (and Guy and Lior and Shir and Amit and Yoni) more than ever today.<br /><br />xxooMnoreply@blogger.com